The actress puzzled fans with “confession” on Instagram.
Over the past six months, Evangeline Lilly has radically changed her image: in the autumn she cut her hair very much, and in January she dyed her blonde. Probably, the change of image became for the actress a symbol of a new stage in life.
She recently shared her photo with dark long hair and admitted that last year was very difficult for her. But Evangeline did not specify what exactly happened to her.
Many say that I’m better with a brunette. Well, there she is, that brunette a year ago. Last year was very difficult for me. I didn’t want to share this because I didn’t want to turn into a dark cloud above your heads. I always wanted to bring joy and light to the world. But I was tormented by the feeling that I was what others wanted to see me. I often feel alone and invisible
– writes Lilly on the microblog.
The actress admitted that for a long time she suppressed pain and kept everything in herself. But at some point I could not stand it.
I always knew that I was strong. I held in myself both my own and others’ pain. In public, I hid it, I laughed at my pain. Until last year. I have broken. Suddenly I had to meet with my weakness and limitation, with my trauma and fears. I had a choice: to accept all this or continue to deny what would ultimately kill me.
Now I’m slowly getting up. But I feel myself moving away from you. It seems to me pointless to share my light with you when you do not know my darkness. I feel lost and apathy in this space of ours. And I ask myself: would you like to go through the darkness with me if I shared with you?
– concluded the actress in a mysterious publication.