“I will never be dropped and I am fully responsible for my harmful behavior. “

Ryan Adams takes responsibility for his actions.

The singer wrote a long apology Friday, a year and a half after a hot New York Times report accused him of sexual harassment and emotional abuse against women – including his former wife Mandy Moore.

In the NYT article, Adams was charged with retaliation against women who rejected his advances, sabotaging their careers and harassing them via text messages and social media.

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At the time, the rocker denied all the allegations, calling the article “overwhelmingly inaccurate”, insisting: “Some of its details are distorted; some are exaggerated; some are downright false. “

But in a new creeping mea culpa sent to the Daily Mail, he admitted that he had mistreated people throughout his life and career, and that he “would never be dropped” because of his harmful behavior.

“There are no words to express how bad I feel about the way I have mistreated people throughout my life and career,” he began.

“All I can say is that I’m sorry. It’s as simple as that. This period of isolation and reflection made me realize that I had to make significant changes in my life. “

“I have passed the point where I would apologize just for the sake of being picked up and I know very well that my apologies will probably not be accepted by those I have hurt.” I understand that and I also understand that there is no return possible. ” 

He admitted that many people would see his words as “the same empty *** excuses I always used when I was called”; however, he insisted that this time was different.

“Having truly realized the harm I caused, it destroyed me and I am still in shock from the devastating effects that my actions have unleashed. “

“There is no way to convince people that this time is really different, but it is the albatross that I deserve to have with me as a result of my actions. “

“Realizing the consequences of my actions, I took a hard look inward and sought to find the truth behind them. What pain did I have that was so badly and so badly projected onto others? “

“I made a promise to myself that no matter what it took, I would get to the root of these problems and finally start correcting myself so that I could be a better friend, a better partner and a better man in the together. “

“That being said, no growth will ever eliminate the suffering I had caused. I will never be dropped and I am fully responsible for my harmful behavior and actions in the future. “

The 45-year-old then revealed that he is now fighting to get sober with the help of a professional.

“But I won’t bore anyone with stories of my demons and I won’t use them to excuse what I did. I really want to express that I have internalized the importance of personal care and personal work. I really try. ” 

He said he has written enough music for half a dozen albums since the article was published – some angry, others sad, most about the lessons he learned. he added: “These are the expression of my deepest remorse. “

“I hope the people I have injured will heal,” he said. “And I hope they find a way to forgive me.” “

In the original Times article, Moore – who was married to Adams from 2009 to 2016 – alleged that Adams took control of her music career after they met her and discouraged her from working with other people. She said they would write songs together, only for other female artists to record them.

“He always said to me, ‘You are not a real musician, because you do not play an instrument,'” she said. “His controlling behavior essentially blocked my ability to make new connections in the industry during a very pivotal and potentially lucrative period – all in my mid-twenties. “

A number of women also claimed that he had offered to advance their music careers in exchange for sex; The FBI confirmed the following day that he was under investigation for sexually explicit communication with a minor fan.

In an interview promoting his new album in March, Moore quickly diverted the conversation from his ex.

“I just don’t want this thing to be about her,” she told NYT. “It took so long for so many people. “

“I can promise you that he is happy to speak in any way. I just know it. I haven’t spoken to him since, I don’t know, two years or something, but I know him as well as I know him, he really starts talking. ”