It will be pretty strange for Taylor Swift (29) to perform during the MTV VMA on Monday. It is exactly ten years ago that Kanye West stormed the stage during the same award show, because he felt that the singer went home with the prize for the best video clip. The moment made a deep impression on her at the time and she even wrote about it in her diary.

“I don’t think there are many people who can understand what it’s like when millions of people hate you”

Ten years ago the 29-year-old singer won the award for Female Video of the Year, much to the dismay of the rapper. Because he thought the prize should go to Beyoncé, he climbed the stage and took the microphone from Taylor. “Ah, what can’t change in a week,” the singer wrote in her diary, an excerpt of which can be read in a special edition of her new album Lover. “If you were to say that one of the biggest musical stars would jump onto the stage and say on live television that I should not have won: I would say that things like that don’t happen in real life.”

Although the rapper afterwards publicly apologized, it was hit again a few years later. “I think Taylor and I might still be able to have sex. Why? Because I made that bitch famous,” Kanye raped in his song Famous (2016). Much to the dismay of the singer who shared her anger on social media. Kim Kardashian then stood up for her husband by sharing sound clips on which Taylor gives permission for the song.

The singer got a lot of criticism about herself after the action of Kim. Earlier this month Taylor already said that she felt very lonely during that period. “I don’t think there are many people who can understand what it’s like when millions of people hate you. If you say someone’s career needs to be boycotted, you’re talking about a person. You send massive messages to those to be quiet, too disappear or even to commit suicide. “