Lady Gaga won two awards at the Critics’ Choice Awards on Sunday night, best actress and best song (Shallow) for her work in “A Star Is Born”. 

But instead of attending one of the many parties to celebrate her double win, the singer of “Poker Face” has returned home to stay with his horse and say “goodbye”.

In a moving publication on her Instagram page, the star shared a photo of her riding her white steed.

View this post on Instagram

Goodbye, my angel 💔

A post shared by Lady Gaga (@ladygaga) on

“I am so honored and lucky to have won the Best Song and Best Actress Award alongside Glenn Close tonight. My heart explodes with pride. But it saddens me to say that just after the ceremony, I learned that my dear mare, my angel Arabella, was dying. I rush right now to her to say goodbye. His name means “give in to prayer”. She is and was a beautiful horse. Our soul and our spirit were one. When she suffered, I suffered too. I will never forget the moments we shared. The long hikes together, the gallops in the canyons, when I gave him his biscuits; she will always be part of me. I am very sad. But I want your pain to end and the gates of paradise.

Referring to her song Joanne, about the loss of a loved one, Lady Gaga concluded, “I love you. My darling, where do you think you’re going? ” The actress and singer also shared the news on her Twitter page, writing: “Goodbye my angel,” followed by a heartbroken emoji. Sunday night had already been rich in emotions for the star, who burst into tears as she went on stage a second time to accept his award for Best Actress, which she shared with Glenn Close. After paying tribute to her fiance Christian Carino, she then spoke to Bradley Cooper, who directed and starred in A Star Is Born. “Bradley, you’re a magical filmmaker. And you are an equally magical human being. I have never experienced anything like this with a director or an actor. You have been, at once and without a hitch, the love of my life and the man behind the camera, “said Lady Gaga.