Chrissy Teigen John Legend'
After the loss of her third child, Chrissy Teigen (34) has written a long statement about the dark period she went through. On her own website she writes that she and husband John Legend (41) are very grateful for all the support.

“After a few nights in the hospital, the doctor told me what I was already thinking – it was time to say goodbye”

In her statement, Chrissy describes, among other things, the run-up to the delivery. “I lay in bed for a month, trying to get the little boy to a ‘safer’ place,” she writes. After a month of bed rest, Chrissy was hospitalized, where she stayed for several days. “After a few nights in the hospital, the doctor told me what I was thinking – it was time to say goodbye. He wouldn’t survive.”

Chrissy also looks back on her various social media posts during the pregnancy and the grief afterward. “It feels bad that our mourning was public. That was because I made the joy so public. I really wanted to share our happy news with the world,” said Chrissy. “It’s difficult to look at that now.”

Chrissy closes by thanking everyone who gave her the space to grieve. In recent weeks, she took a break from social media. “I knew I had to write something before moving on with my life. Thank you all for this,” Chrissy concluded. “Thanks to every person who has thought of us and sent us sweet messages.”

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I didn’t know how to come back to real life so I wrote this piece for Medium with hopes that I can somehow move on but as soon as I posted it, tears flew out because it felt so….final. I don’t want to ever not remember jack. . . Thank you to everyone who has been so kind. Thank you to the incredible doctors who tried so hard to make our third life a reality. Thank you to my friends and family and our entire household for taking care of me through all the adult diaper changes, bed rest and random hugs. Thank you John for being my best friend and love of my life. A lot of people think of the woman in times like this but I will never forget that john also suffered through these past months, while doing everything he could to take care of me. I am surrounded, in a human therapy blanket of love. I am grateful and healing and feel so incredibly lucky to witness such love.

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