Although a lot has come out in the past year about the guardianship that Britney Spears (40) was under for thirteen years, according to the singer, a lot more has happened. In a post on Instagram, she says on Monday that people have no idea what has been done to her personally.

“I hid the pain”

In the long message, the singer writes that she has always kept her frustrations about supervision to herself. ‘I often screamed when I was alone, hiding the pain. They say you have to go to the source, to the person who hurt you in order to heal. I could never do that. I chose denial because I didn’t want conflict. I was nice, was fake, but inside I was screaming.’

Britney continues: ‘It may seem crazy that I’m not even involved with my music anymore, but after everything I’ve been through, I’m afraid of the people in the business.’ According to the singer, the fact that she does not perform and does not make music is a ‘ f*ck you ‘ to her family and the other people who have always earned from her career.

The 40-year-old says she’s grown a lot in the past year, but she’s not where she wants to be yet. Her New Year’s resolution is to push herself to do things that scare her. “But not too scary, because I’m only human and not superwoman .”